I distinctly remember when I looked at my good friend, Maggie, and said “I think the hardest part of the Race is over for me! I know things will be frustrating but I truly think that things are on the up for me!”
I look back on this and I can’t help but smile. I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Month 7… I feel like I walked through hell. It’s funny how a phone call can make everything you thought was important seem very wrong, stupid, and boring.
My purpose for this isn’t to tell you what happened. It’s not to receive pity. It’s not to tell you how hard my life is.
My purpose is to point you towards Christ.
I have learned to sing hallelujah when my world is turned upside down. I’m still learning how to do this. It’s so easy on the World Race to say that no matter what tests me, I will sing the Name of Jesus.
Never in my life did I think that declaring His name would be the only possible thing for me to do because nothing else gives hope.
I have written many times how beautiful to see someone in the midst of battle, weeping, and declaring the Name of the Lord.
I lived this exact moment multiple times this month. To the point where I have nothing in my guts and I was surprised when a noise escaped my lungs that said: Hallelujah.
Followers, this month is hell. I don’t want to write about it at all. But I’m taking a step by writing something. I don’t have the words for my life right now. But I’m glad the Holy Spirit intervenes in times like this.
I am living proof that speaking the Name of Jesus breaks chains, makes mountains fall, and allows freedom to reign.
I have seen what evil can do. But I’ve also seen what my King can do.
My loyalty is with my King.
Maybe one day I can share everything but all I will say is this:
I am helpless, but I am not hopeless.
Praying for you and your family EmJay. Maggie’s Mama
Love you and your family continued committed daily prayers.
Continuing to pray that GOD takes
you deeper ??.
Your a Super inspiration ! ??
Marianna, God has very kindly, very wisely put some iron into your confidence in Him over these last several months. His timing is perfect. Always. Trust Him. I’m praying constantly.
It’s amazing how during some of our toughest, worse times God grows us the most. Now you know you can say Hallelujah no matter how low your life is, sometimes not even realizing you are the one saying Hallelujah. You and your family remain in our prayers. God is good and He will see your family and you through this rough time.
There are some scriptures that I may accept with my mind but don’t believe with my heart – until I “live” them. This is one-
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 11:28
May His love and grace pour over you and your family.
We serve an amazing God! Your family has been in my prayers faithfully, and fervently. Praise the Lord for His Faithfulness to us and the Holy Spirit for interceding for us. What a testimony you have that in the midst of the horrible time God’s spirit within you said Hallelujah. Standing with you in prayer. Love you.
EmJay, you’re a true fighter. I love you so much and am so lucky to call you friend and sister. Your family has been absolutely covered in prayers, and an army of angels is gathering around ya’ll day and night. I can’t wait to see you and hug your neck!!!! Much love, lil mama. Hang in there. Sing that hallelujah here below because it’s our King’s favorite sound 😉